Lost in Life (con't)

Well today has been a long day!... But seem to have gone by very fast. Today we were running so late. Got up early but decided to dye my hair like at the last min. Had to wash them greys away. But like my Dr. says greys build character. HaHa lol I say they look good on him. NOT ME. Then got kids up and ready for school. They were a tad bit late. Then well I had a meeting for 3 hours and rescheduled that to next week. It was for section 8. Just so I could go to my pysch appt. Then found out they rescheduled that. Well rescheduling the sec 8 didn't make hubby to happy. But you know what I didn't care!.. I have to have some piece of mind some where.

Well it's so official I am no longer HOMELESS. Today I officially signed the papers to move in on Wednesday of this week. And hubby so thinks he's coming with me NOT!... I mean finding a home don't change how I feel about him. Move in with me so I do everything. I am so sick of the stress. I want to know what being happy is and all about. I know as long as I suffer from depression I never will know the true meaning of being happy. And really what true love is. I know writing this blog is driving hubby crazy he keeps asking me who am I writing to. Wouldn't he so like to know. Just like after the dr.s appt he asked me what the dr. said. Like I told him none of his business. I mean all we ever do is live the life of a married couple. We are truly not married and he truly isn't happy. All he ever tells me is I never do nothing right. I know I don't!...Hard to love someone when they don't appreciate the things I do do. Or even knowledge the things I do. Well I think I wrote enough for tonight. And with hubby I am not allowed privacy as he is trying to watch everything I write.